Peace and Frustration

This week has been extremely rough...and it's only Wednesday. I don't want to complain at all, that's not what this post is going to be about, but it's going to be about getting some things out of my heart and mind. I feel bad for those of you who actually read my posts, because most of the time, they're pretty personal, and I don't usually think about the fact that someone might actually read them.
-taye


May the God of peace be with you

I have been forgetting God so much this week. Praying for what I want, rather than what I need, and simply letting Him tag along for the ride of my life rather than placing Him at the front. Just for the record, trying to take hold of your own life and deal with situations on your own never works, so do not waste your time. The thing is that I know that, and yet I still try and take matters into my own hands rather than relying completely on Christ.
Sunday I was getting so overwhelmed with all the scholarship forms and essays I desperately needed to do. Monday was Valentine's Day, and well, that day always gets me in a frizzled mood, plus it was one of those days where everything seems to go wrong. Yesterday I was extremely unfocused during school, and as a result not much was accomplished, and at dance I became frustrated with myself for not picking up the counts and choreography as quickly as I usually do. Lastly, today I do not feel good; I have been feeling really dizzy since last night and have had a bad headache- I hope I'm not coming down with something.
All of that to say that I have been focusing completely on my circumstances and the temporary and not even realizing what I have been doing to God.

"Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth."
Colossians 3:2 (ESV)

I have not been obeying this scripture at all. My mind has been nowhere near heaven, but rather very focused on the earth, and it should not be. The earth is only my temporary home; I will be here for merely a blink of an eye, 3/4 of a second-no longer. I am here only to bring glory to God and simply accomplish His purpose for me, and then my time here will be finished, over, and done. Why then, do I so often get my mind fixed on the idea that I will be here forever and that my surroundings and circumstances matter much at all?

"...what is seen in temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."
2 Corinthians 4:18 (NIV)

"But out citizenship is in heaven...."
Philippians 3:20 (NIV)

But today I will have peace because God forgives me when I forget Him, and He will never forsake me or leave me, though I leave Him and drag Him behind the rest of my life. Also, He gives me peace which goes beyond all else.

"For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace."
Romans 8:6 (ESV)

"And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
Philippians 4:7 (ESV)

"For He Himself is our peace..."
Ephesians 2:14 (ESV)