Senioritis is starting to kick in . . . big time. Plus, lately there has been SO much on my mind, and I have got to let some of it out.
-taye
You are making me new
One thing that has been continually on my mind lately is myself. Not in a selfish, I-think-about-myself-all-the-time way, but in a critical, judgemental way. I am so weak, I am so sinful, I am nothing . . . especially compared to Christ and His glory and strength and power. But the problem lately has been that I have not been comparing myself to only Him, I have been comparing myself to other people AND Him, and I still fall short.
"But He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, My power is made perfect in weakness.' "
2 Corinthians 12:9
Also, I have really been struggling with my thoughts being consumed by what I want, and it has been difficult to accept the fact that what I want may not be what God wants for me. But I think to myself, "Why would God give me this desire for something if He is not going to give it to me?" But God does not always work that way. I may have desires that He will not give me so that in spite of what I want, I learn to give up my desires for what He wants for me. I am just not there yet, though. It is a constant struggle.
I see all this -- all these faults and flaws in myself, and I see them as negative things. Some of them may be negative things that need to be changed, but there are also there for me to see that I am not perfect, and cannot be perfect, but that God is perfect and I can always find perfection and faithfulness in Him. I can constantly turn to Him and find strength and stability and rely on Him without worry, for He is faithful and He loves me.
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