Thursday, December 30, 2010

You're My beloved, You're My bride

Over the past few days two things have been on my mind: how I want to fall in love with a guy, and how I want to fall in love with God. There is a video that some people made that's been going around facebook of this couple's wedding, it's beautiful and adorable, but even so you can see how much both of them love God as well as each other. There is a song that Kari Jobe sings called "My Beloved" and it goes really well with everything that's going on in my head.
-taye

Come away with Me, My love

For as long as I can remember; from the time that I was a little girl, I have wanted a fairytale. Disney movies are great, but at a certain point a girl wants a real life prince to come up on a white horse and whisk her away to his magical kingdom. However the incredible thing that I'm beginning to realize is that God is that Prince. Isaiah 54:5 says "For your Maker is your Husband..."
For such a long time I have had in my mind that I must fall in love with God before a guy will come along, which in a way that is completely true, however I have had in my mind that the guy would be the ultimate prize to fall in love with, but what God is trying to show me is that HE is the prize, not the guy. Human love is only another way that God shows His love among us, not the other way around.
Everything that I have said is only a glimpse at everything swarming my mind, but now I am going to enjoy my true love in Christ as a wait patietly and expectantly for the man that God will someday bring along, through whom Christ will continue to show His love for me.


"My Beloved" by Kari Jobe


You're My Beloved
You're My Bride
To sing over you is My delight
Come away with Me My love

You're Beautiful to Me
So beautiful to Me

Under My mercy
Come and wait
Till we are standing face to face
I see no stain on you
My child




You're Beautiful to Me
So Beautiful to Me

I sing over you My song of peace
Cast all your care down at My feet
Come and find your rest in Me

I'll breathe My life inside of you
I'll bear you up on eagle's wings
And hide you in the shadow of My strength
I'll take you to My quiet waters
I'll restore your soul
Come rest in Me and be made whole

You're My beloved
You're My Bride
To sing over you is my delight
Come away with me my love

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Give Thanks

Thanksgiving is coming up in a couple of days, and so in preparation for that...here's a list of ten things I'm most thankful for.
-taye




Thanksgiving


Thanksgiving is a public acknowledgment or celebration of divine goodness.



1. I am thankful for salvation, which I am so underserving of

2. I am beyond thankful for my best friends, who mean the world to me

3. I am thankful for memories...most of them have the ability to cheer me up when I think of them

4. I am thankful for peanut butter...but only the crunchy kind

5. I am thankful for beauty...it's everywhere, and it always points back to the Creator

6. I am thankful for my family...yes, they're insane but I love them, and they are a large part of who I am today

7. I am thankful for random friends who live all over the country...it's neat to know that I have some who live everywhere from California, to Kansas, to New Jersey and even Canada (though I'm aware that's not in the country)

8. I am thankful for the ability to walk and dance :)

9. I am thankful for God's patience...sometimes I don't know how He puts up with me

10. I am thankful for the little things in life that mean so much.



What are you thankful for this Thanksgiving time?

Sunday, November 21, 2010

You are the light that's leading me

I love this song by Lifehouse. I listened to it this weekend on the car ride home from Mississippi and just rememebered that God is in complete control of my future, which was good considering I was on my way home from a college visit/dance audition.

It's called "Everything" by Lifehouse

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f1tVk-QlBKs

There's a link ^ and here are the lyrics...enjoy!
-taye






Find me here, speak to me

I want to feel you, I need to hear you

You are the light, that's leading me

To the place where I find peace, again.



You are the strength, that keeps me walking

You are the hope, that keeps me trusting

You are the life, to my soul,

You are my purpose, you're everything



And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?



You calm the storms, and you give me rest

You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall

You still my heart, and you take my breath away

Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?



And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?



Cause you're all I want, You're all I need,

You're everything, everything

You're all I want, You're all I need

You're everything, everything.

You're all I want, You're all I need.

You're everything, everything

You're all I want, You're all I need.

You're everything, everything.



And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?

Would you tell me how could it be any better, any better than this.



And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?



Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Found Seeking

This is from an email my mom sent me a few months ago. I first read this poem after an amazing girl at Camp Marannook gave me a copy of it this summer. Throughout the summer I had read this almost everyday...it is such an encouragement! I hadn't read it in a while until last night it fell out of my bible, so I read it once again and it was exactly what I needed to hear from the Lord last night. I'm bolding my favorite parts.
~taye


Found Seeking Poem




Everyone longs to give himself completely to someone, to have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But God to a Christian Says:

“No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled, and content with being loved by Me alone, until you give yourself totally to Me, having an intensely personal and unique relationship with me alone, discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction found. Then and only then will you be capable of the human relationship that I have planned for you.

You will never be wholly united with another until you are united with Me, exclusive of any other desires or longings. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing- one that you cannot imagine. I want you to have the BEST!

Choose my way. You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest and keep experiencing the satisfaction that I AM. Keep listening and learning the things I tell you. You just wait, that’s all. Don’t be anxious. Don’t look at the things you want. You just keep looking off and up to Me or you will miss what I want to show you. You see, until you are ready (and I am working even this moment to have both of you ready at the same time), until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I have prepared for you, you will not be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me and this perfect love.

My Dear One, I want you to have the most wonderful love for one another. I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me, and to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty, perfection, and love that I offer you with Myself. Know that I love you completely and eternally. I am the Almighty God. Believe Me, trust Me, and be satisfied.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

A thought on government

So, I was just reading in my government book, which I was supposed to do last week, but I am such a procrastinator I am just now reading it. But anyway, the chapter was on Paul's thoughts on government and what he wrote to the Jewish Christians in Rome and how, as Christians, we should react toward the Government...not only in America but government everywhere. I have a lot to do so I'm not going to add much to this, but this is just a chapter from Romans pertaining to government and also a quote from William Penn (which the entire preamble that the quote is from is one example of how our country began with Christ as our foundation).
taye

Government

"Everyone must submit himself to the governing authorities, for there is no authority except that which God has established. The authorities that exist have been established by God. Consequently, he who rebels against the authority is rebelling against what God has instituted, and those who do so will bring judgment on themselves. For rulers hold no terror for those who do right, but for those who do wrong. Do you want to be free from fear of the one in authority? Then do what is right and he will commend you. For he is God's servant to do you good. But if you do wrong, be afraid, for he does not bear the sword for nothing. He is God's servant, an agent of wrath to bring punishment on the wrongdoer. Therefore, it is necessary to submit to the authorities, not only because of possible punishment but also because of conscience. This is also why you pay taxes, for the authorities are God's servants, who give their full time to governing. Give everyone what you owe him: If you owe taxes, pay taxes; if revenue, then revenue; if respect, then respect; if honor, then honor.
Love, for the Day is Near
Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another, for he who loves his fellowman has fulfilled the law. The commandments, "Do not commit adultery," "Do not murder," "Do not steal," "Do not covet," and whatever other commandment there may be, are summed up in this one rule: "Love your neighbor as yourself." Love does no harm to its neighbor. Therefore love is the fulfillment of the law.
And do this, understanding the present time. The hour has come for you to wake up from your slumber, because our salvation is nearer now than when we first believed. The night is nearly over; the day is almost here. So let us put aside the deeds of darkness and put on the armor of light. Let us behave decently, as in the daytime, not in orgies and drunkenness, not in sexual immorality and debauchery, not in dissension and jealousy. Rather, clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ, and do not think about how to gratify the desires of the sinful nature."

Romans 13 (NIV)


"Wherefore governments rather depend upon men than men upon governments. Let men be good, and the government cannot be bad; if it be ill, they will cure it. But, if men be bad, let the government be ever so good, they will endeavor to warp and spoil it to their turn."
William Penn,
Preamble of the Frame of Government of Pennsylvania (1682)

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Why are we falling?

So many people today call themselves a Christian without really knowing what being a Christian truly means. This baffles and frustrates me to no end. Parents today are failing to educate and instill morals, faith and truth into their children and that's one main reason why so many student are leaving the church and God once they are on their own. It needs to stop. Here is an article from WORLD Magazine. My best friend posted it on facebook and I thought I'd share it on here. Enjoy and think about it...
taye



Where have we gone wrong?


Today’s Youth—Walking Away from Truth


by Sheila Richardson

July 12, 2007






Why do young people walk away from the church after years of faithful attendance and involvement?

The main reason may be that the curriculum used in most Sunday schools is simply telling Bible stories and not teaching how to defend the truths of Scripture.


A leader in his youth group, Andrew faithfully attended Sunday school every week. He was awarded a scholarship at a well-known university, but by the end of his first year in college, Andrew had renounced his faith.

Sadly, Andrew’s heartbreaking story is not unique. It is repeated in thousands of Christian homes every year.

In August 2006, Answers in Genesis–USA commissioned Britt Beemer from America’s Research Group1 to find out why young people were leaving the church.2 Respondents indicated that Sunday school materials were shallow and “irrelevant.”3 Of those polled, 86% had begun to question the Bible by their high school years.

Of those who said they did not believe all the accounts in the Bible are true, 82% cited doubts about the Bible’s authority or its trustworthiness. What caused these people to doubt the Bible?

Where Have We Gone Wrong?

Basically, we have failed to teach our children to think biblically. In order to survive as believers in our culture, we must all recognize that God rules and speaks about every area of life (e.g., science, philosophy, ethics, history, government, sociology, and education), and not merely about an isolated area designated “religion.”

With fewer than 9% of evangelical Christian adults actually having a biblical worldview, the need for sound biblical teaching is critical.
According to a Barna poll, 80–90% of students from church homes in the U.S. attend public schools (this figure is probably greater in other Western nations). After 30 hours in government schools and another 30 hours in front of the TV each week, young people receive only about one hour per week of “reprogramming” at church (most parents leave the “spiritual” training to the church). Which system of teaching is likely to influence these students in the long run—45 minutes of Sunday schools and youth groups, or 30 hours in public schools?

While the church teaches about Jesus and salvation, the education system has indoctrinated students to doubt the underlying credibility of the Bible. Worse yet, church leaders are often afraid to teach about origins or to confront the divisive issues of the culture, such as abortion, homosexual behavior, and evolution.

Most church curricula feature simplistic stories that fail to connect the dots of redemptive history. Few attempt to teach Bible study skills. Most units on creation or Genesis only present the fact that God created, without addressing the “facts” of evolution that bombard students every day of the week.

Rarely do any lessons deal with foundational questions about the age of things or human evolution. Equally rare is any statement about absolute truth and the inerrancy of Scripture.

By the time a child has reached middle school, he thinks he knows everything the Bible has to offer, and his interest in Sunday school vanishes. However, he will probably continue to participate during his teen years because of the “herd mentality” and social activities of most youth groups.

Why, then, should we be surprised when young Christians desert the church once their social needs are met in other ways? With fewer than 9% of evangelical Christian adults actually having a biblical worldview,4 the need for sound biblical teaching is critical.

What can be done to change this bleak situation?



Teach Doctrine to Children

Changing curriculum, although a simplistic answer to a much bigger problem, is a place to start.

As you evaluate what and how your children are being taught in your church, you may find it helpful to consider the following five principles.

Don’t just tell children and teens they must believe the earth is young; rather, help them see it from Scripture.
Principle 1:

Check the content.

A content-rich curriculum presents the biblical big picture (Creation, Fall, Redemption) and explains the context for all the individual details taught. Consider how it handles Genesis. The way this foundational book is treated sets the stage for how the curriculum provides answers to key questions of life: “Who is God?” “How did the world get here?” “Who am I?” “Do I have a purpose?” “Where does evil come from?”

This is one reason that I wrote the It All Begins with Genesis program for middle school. But training needs to begin earlier. For example, with AiG’s Answers for Kids series, you can begin teaching early elementary students the biblical view of history and how to answer many of the questions they face in school.

Principle 2:

Study as Families Whenever Possible.

When I wrote It All Begins with Genesis about five years ago, I had middle school children in mind. However, three years ago I began asking parents to attend the course with their sixth-grade children. They responded with enthusiasm. Now whole families eagerly attend, with children ranging from third grade through early high school. The results have been amazing!

Principle 3:

Teach How to Study the Bible.

Most curricula teach facts about the Bible but don’t equip students to accurately handle the Word of God. When a curriculum teaches inductive study techniques, students learn to discover truth for themselves. Christian teachers should not just tell students to trust the Bible as absolute truth; they should show students how to see this truth from Scripture. Learning how to study the Bible is a lifelong skill that allows people to fall more in love with God and His Word.

Principle 4:

Employ Critical Thinking Skills.

The curriculum should examine everything in the light of biblical truth.

For instance, don’t just tell students they must believe the earth is young; rather, help them see it from the text of Scripture. It helps young people to learn what popular thinking says about the earth and then to work through the contrasting biblical and theological truths revealed in Scripture. In the process, they will also learn scientific evidence that confirms these truths.

Our secular school system indoctrinates with memorized “facts” and discourages logical questioning. Students who are never taught to question will fall prey to professors who teach unbiblical views. The curriculum should have time for group discussion and allow the freedom to question.

Everything parents and teachers do should reflect the character of God. Nowhere is this more important than in our teaching.
Principle 5:

Reflect God’s Character in the Teaching.

Everything parents and teachers do should reflect the character of God. Nowhere is this more important than in our teaching. Joy prevails as we enjoy Him and each other. When we do things through the power of the Holy Spirit, the results will bring blessings.

For example, God is never boring. He loves variety. His work reflects excellence, beauty, and joy. Any good curriculum includes these components. The goal of a good curriculum should be to honor God through excellence in every lesson, and teachers should strive to achieve this same goal.


Members of Trinity Presbyterian Church in Charlottesville, Virginia, participate in an intergenerational Bible study using the It All Begins with Genesis curriculum. Participants ranged from third grade to grandparents.


When teaching, I constantly change the setup of the room. Sometimes families sit grouped around tables, other times the children on the floor with the parents behind them. Study groups use fast-moving PowerPoint presentations, hands-on demonstrations, and drama. At other times they do quiet “seat work,” marking key words in the biblical text and making lists. And they often draw pictures to describe the concept or play competitive games to evaluate what they have learned.

As the Beemer poll revealed, young people need to learn at a very early age why they believe what they believe. They need to be able to give answers that support their faith. With the Lord’s enabling, Christian parents and teachers can change the results of the poll. Using the right materials, churches and parents can prepare kids to “think biblically” and to discern false teachings when encountered.



Warm relationships developed among parents, kids, and teachers.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Happiness


For me, happiness is so many things. It's the smallest, almost meaningless things that mean the most to me and bring me little pieces of joy everyday. It's doing that third pirouette, or really pretty port de bras in ballet class. Happiness is an encouraging comment from a best friend or reading a bible verse that I feel was written just for me at that specific moment. But most of all, happiness in the fact the Christ died so that I could have life, and have life abundantly.
-taye




"Happiness is a state of mind or feeling characterized by contentment, love, satisfaction, pleasure, or joy."



1. Walking out of church with the feeling that God is walking right next to me

2. A cup of coffee and a good book

3. The feeling after I've worked really hard in a dance class

4. Listening to a favorite song over and over again

5. Seeing a friend that I haven't seen in a while

6. Starbucks dates with my best friends

7. Bubbles, sparkles, coloring books, and disney movies

8. Wearing a dress that makes me feel beautiful

9. Walking out of the movie theater after a really great movie

10. Looking at the clock as it turns 11:11



What makes you happy, joyful, satisfied?

Thursday, October 7, 2010

"Glorify the Lord with me..."


So last night my friend Grace and I had the opportunity to lead worship at our youth group. It's something that I had always wanted to do but never really made it happen. It was such an incredible experience. Yes, both of us were a little nervous, but I had to remind myself that this wasn't a performance it was leading; serving God by leading in worshipping and glorifying God. The message last night was on living our lives to the glory of God which is what leads me to writing.
-taye

John 17:1-10
"After Jesus said this, He looked toward heaven and prayed: 'Father, the time has come. Glorify Your Son, that Your Son may glorify You. For You granted Him authority over all people that He might give eternal life to all those You have given Him. Now this is eternal life: that they may know You, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom You have sent. I have brought You glory on earth by completing the work You gave me to do. And now, Father, glorify Me in Your presence with the glory I had with You before the world began.

"'I have revealed You to those whom You gave Me out of the world. They were Yours; You gave them to Me and they have obeyed Your word. Now they know that everything You have given Me comes from You. For I gave them the words You gave Me and they accepted them. They knew with certainty that I came from You, and they believed that You sent Me. I pray for them. I am not praying for the world, but for those You have given Me, for they are Yours. All I have is Yours, and all You have is mine. And glory has come to Me through them.
'"


The word glory or glorify appears five times in just those ten verses, I'm thinking it's pretty important. So what does glory really mean? What does it mean to glorify someone? Webster's defines it as "To give glory to; to light up brilliantly". To LIGHT UP BRILLIANTLY! Do we light God up brilliantly so that all the world will see Him in our lives? Matthew 5:16 says "...let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven." We are to SHINE before the world. As Christians, or "little Christs" we should be shining so brightly that every person we come in contact with will see plainly that there is something so different about us from the rest of the world that they will know that Christ is in us and praise Him. Philippians 2:15 says that we are "...children of God...in a crooked and depraved generation, in which [we] shine like stars in the universe." There's that word shine again. What does it mean to shine? Shine is defined as "radiance, luster, or brilliance" and there is brilliance again which means "bright" or "brightness" So basically we are to be shining so brightly for Christ that the world cannot miss seeing Him within us and through our lives that they will see what we have in God and glorify Him. But let us ask ourselves if we are shining.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Let's fall in love

So, it's been a while since I've written. I have been so ridiculously busy it's insane. But I really am enjoying senior year so far. Of course changing my mind a lot. So far, I've applied to Belhaven, Auburn, and South Carolina. I'm trying to decide on at least one or two other places to apply and right now I'm considering TCU, UNCSA, and maybe possibly even Julliard, though it's all up in the air at this point. Anyway, Right now I'm trying to focus on falling in love with God, which is harder than it appears, but here's just some stuff I've been thinking about lately.
-taye


How do you fall in love?


Beginning this summer, during my time at Camp Marannook, I decided that I wanted to fall in love with God, and that I wanted to work on that over my senior year of high school. However, it has been a significant struggle for me. When I think about everything that Christ has done for me and how deep His love is for me, it seems foolish that I cannot find it in myself to fall madly in love with Him.

A couple of nights ago, I was lying in bed attempting to pray and as my mind wandered off somewhere I found myself thinking of love. These thoughts reminded me of my "goal" of falling in love with God. I got to wondering why I struggling so much with it, when I began to think: "How do you fall in love?" I realized that I was trying to force myself into falling in love with God without spending a lot of time talking to Him or in His Word. No wonder it was not working!

When two people fall in love, they do so while spending a lot of time together. They talk, they write each other notes, they dive in and dig in to figure out everything there is to know about the other person. I was not doing any of these things with God. I realized that relationships on earth are used to help us understand how to have a relationship with God. It is kind of like babysitting provides you with examples and experience on how to take care of your own child. You learn. Relationships on earth show us how to have a relationship with God and vice versa.

Friday, August 20, 2010

"The Lord is my strength..."

So, I am now officially a senior...I can't believe it! All I can say is that I feel extremely inadequate to be applying to colleges and finishing high school; I feel so little, so small. My best friend cracked me up yesterday when she said "You know how senior year is supposed to be awesome? Well it's kind of a mourning time for me." haha, but really it's true, it's so scary! But anyway, here is what I've been learning from God recently.
-taye


"I will trust and not be afraid"

As I begin my senior year of high school, I have had to begin the long process of applying to colleges. This process has been somewhat intimidating for me as well as terrifying. The issue has been the fact that I know one-hundred percent that God is calling me to do something with dance, whatever that may be, therefore the logical thing to do would be to major in dance. The thing is that part of me wants to try and make it in a company right out of high school, but God is not calling me to that. I feel like He has a lot to teach me through going to college, so that is what I am going to do. I believe I have finally narrowed it down to applying to four schools: Belhaven University in Jackson, Mississippi, University of South Carolina in Columbia, South Carolina, University of North Carolina School of the Arts in Winston-Salem, North Carolina, and lastly Birmingham Southern College in Birmingham, Alabama. Before I really decided on these four schools, though, I had some serious trouble putting all of my trust in the Lord and simply relying on Him that He would guide me where I need to go.
Last night I was looking for a verse to send in my nightly text message I send to some friends and I stumbled upon Isaiah 12:2 which says

"Surely God is my salvation;
I will trust and not be afraid.
The Lord, the Lord, is my strength and my song;
He has become my salvation."

I just love when God gives you a verse that is exactly what you need to hear.

Happy Friday!

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

ABT Austin


So I got back last weekend from a month in Austin, Texas where I was at ABT’s summer intensive. It was an incredible month, for sure…I learned so much, but not only about dance. Here are some things I learned, though I’m sure I’m forgetting a lot.
-taye


Things I learned, oh so much!

1. No matter how good you think you are at something, there is always a TON of room for improvement. That’s one thing I love about ballet and dance in general, you always have something else to work toward. Over the past month I danced in a class full of people that were really great dancers and I got to take class from some of the best teachers I’ve ever taken from. Doing this taught me that I still have a lot to work on in dance and that hard work is good for me. In dance, I have bad days where I feel like crap and wonder why I continue to do this, and then I’ll have good days where I realize why I’ve been dancing for the past 14 years, and why I love it so much, and what I can do with it in the future. I’m so thankful for all of the teachers that helped me grow as a dancer and a person over the past month.

2. I learned that when you live with a bunch of girls for a month, there is drama. This is one reason I think I was meant to be a guy. But God blessed me with friends that stayed out of drama and I am so glad I had the opportunity to meet those girls and get to know them, even though we’re all from different parts of the country. I learned and grew so much from spending so much time with them, and I’ve come to love them very much and I know we’ll all be friends for a long time. Girls, you know who you are.

3. Even though I was there to dance, throughout my month in Austin I managed to grow spiritually as well. I’ll admit that I didn’t always make time to read the bible, and some nights I fell asleep before I had a chance to talk to God, but I realized a few things while I was there…one, that God is present even when you aren’t thinking about him. Two, that dependency on Christ is something I lack very much. At the beginning of the summer I went to Camp Marannook and so many people were saying how they wanted to be more dependant on God, me being the stubborn teenager that I am thought to myself that I didn’t need to work on that…haha God showed me.

4. I’m realizing that with dance, there are a lot of options for my future and that I’ve just got to have faith that where I’m supposed to be is where I’ll end up this time next year.

Monday, June 14, 2010

He has given us everything we need for life and godliness...


So I just got back from Marannook and learned so so much through fellowship, worship, church, and bible study. I learned a TON, but I guess I can sum it up into three points:

Point numero uno: That fellowship is absolutely necessary. God created us for fellowship with our brothers and sisters in Christ and He uses that fellowship to strengthen, encourage, and grow us into the people He created us to become. I had an incredible time getting to see old friends as well as making so many new ones, and am so excited about my new friendships and getting to look forward to what God is going to do with each of them.

Point Two: Christ's love for me is unfathomable. For Bible Study, we had to memorize a verse a week and for the first week I memorized Romans 8:38-39 which says: "For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, neither anything else in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." That is one of my favorite verses because it reminds me that even when I get busy, or stressed, or forget about the gospel that CHRIST LOVES ME regardless of anything I ever do, no matter how much I sin, or forget Him, or stray from Him that He loves me and will ALWAYS open His arms when I come running back.

Point Three: Jesus satisfies all my longings. There's a song we sang in Bible Study one night called "Satisfied" and the chorus goes like this: "Hallelujah! He has found me, the One my soul so long has craved. Jesus satisfies all my longings, by His blood I now am saved." My verse that I had memorized for this past week was Philippians 4:11-13: "I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well-fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want." I would love to be able to say truthfully that I am content in ANY and EVERY situation. However, I am not one to be completely content, there's always that one other thing that I want, that one other person in my life to make me feel complete, that one other thing that I can do perfectly, that one other something, but I was reminded over the past four weeks that God + something NEVER works. It can only be God and God alone. There is nothing else to add, nothing that could make Christ in my life more complete. God + something is like downgrading the Lord of the universe.

I'm still working on a lot of things, but I just really wanted to share with you all what I have learned and am still continuing to learn. I also have a new favorite song: How deep the Father's love for us. It's an incredible reminder of the gospel and of Christ's incredible and deep love.




How deep the Father's love for us,
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure

How great the pain of searing loss,
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the chosen One,
Bring many sons to glory

Behold the Man upon a cross,
My sin upon His shoulders
Ashamed I hear my mocking voice,
Call out among the scoffers

It was my sin that held Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I know that it is finished

I will not boast in anything
No gifts, no power, no wisdom
But I will boast in Jesus Christ
His death and resurrection

Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom

Friday, April 23, 2010

ζωή

In case you're wondering, the title is Greek for "Life". I'm supposed to be working on a research paper right now, but I'm getting writer's block. So here are some life updates (hence the title).
-taye


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School: I have only three more weeks of being a junior in high school. The past three years seem like they have completely flown past. Still, the only college I have visited is the University of South Carolina. Hopefully, though, there will be visits to Belhaven University, and perhaps Texas Christian University and/or University of Texas in the near future as well. I plan to take the SAT once again next Saturday, hoping to bring my math score up a lot.

Dance: My studio is in "financial difficulty" due to the economy right now, so our recital this year will be in the tiny, in-studio theater that only holds about 100 people rather than the large performing arts building that holds over 700 that we're usually in. But nevertheless, we are preparing for the shows which are in a little over a week. This year I am performing six pieces, plus the class I teach has a piece. My pieces are:

Serenade- group pointe
Carmen- duet on pointe
Uninvited- group contemporary
Ruby Blue- group jazz
Amazing Grace- group contemporary
Single Ladies- group tap

Life: My seventeenth birthday is next Wednesday, the 28Th. I cannot believe that I will be seventeen! I feel like I am getting so old, I think I should just be turning 13. I feel very inadequate to be preparing for college and to be on my own soon!

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Seventeen

Hello. I'm exhausted from dancing today, but I've got a lot on my mind and want to let some of it out so I can get some sleep. So here we go.
-taye


Seventeen

As I rapidly approach the age of seventeen, I am beginning to realize how opposite life is from the movies. I may be the only one who thinks this way; however it seems to me that nearly everyone falls in love at seventeen. Though the person they fall in love with may not be the one that they will live happily ever after with, it seems like the subject of love opens up when one turns the peculiar age of seventeen.

I still have ten days to go until that day, though I am eagerly looking forward to it. I adore birthdays; they are just so much fun! Unlike Christmas or Valentine’s Day or all other holidays, a birthday is specifically about you. Plus, my incredible friends always make it so special for me; therefore, this year does not look like it will be any different. However, I still want to experience that one birthday where that one special person make you feel important.

Perhaps seventeen will be like the movies for me, though I seriously doubt it, optimism can never be a bad thing, can it? I supposed we will see with time.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Insanity

Hey there on this lovely Tuesday morning! I'm in a great mood today so far, but that could be because I started my day with coffee and Regis & Kelly. Anyway, for literature today, I had to write a paper about insanity to go along with the chapter on Edgar Allen Poe. It's not very good but I thought I'd share it despite that fact.
-taye


Sanity or Insanity? That is the question.

Sanity is defined as the state of being sane, or having a soundness of mind, but what is sanity really? And by whose standards is “being sane” defined?
Some might define sanity as thinking in a normal state, but then if one defines it as that, by whose standards is normality defined? The list could continue endlessly.

One might believe that sanity would be a simple attribute to posses, however in my opinion it is madness or insanity that is much easier to attain and hold onto. Madness is defined as the quality of being insane, or senseless folly. However, folly is not a word that comes to mind when I think of madness. Folly is a fault or foolishness, but I think to have to the courage to be mad is genius. Marilyn Monroe once said “Madness is genius…” and though she is not necessarily one I would want to model my life after, I believe that she was correct with this statement.
Take the book or the movies of Alice in Wonderland for example. The Mad Hatter is brilliant! Indeed he is also extremely mad and out of his head, yet he has always been my favorite character for that very reason. He thinks in a completely unconventional way that most shy away from, and though others view him as insane, brilliance is a result of that madness. The most recent version of this tale is director Tim Burton’s take on the story and it has such a wonderful quote. The Mad Hatter asks Alice if he is mad and she cleverly replies with the following: “You're mad, bonkers, off your head! But I'll tell you a secret: All the best people are.” And it is true, the best people are insane.

To go in the opposite direction from Lewis Carroll’s mad tale, take Jesus for example. He came to the world normally as a baby born to a mother and father, Mary and Joseph. Joseph must have though Mary completely insane when she told him how Jesus was conceived, in fact, at the beginning he did not believe her and planned to “Divorce her quietly”. Similarly, throughout Jesus’ ministries here on the earth numerous people must have thought Him to be crazy. He performed many miracles such as healing the blind or crippled, and even raising the dead to life again! The chief priests thought Him insane when He told them that if they were to tear down the temple, He would raise it again in three days. However, the world thought Christ insane because they did not know Him; they did not understand Him. Continued into the present, this misunderstanding of Christ has caused people to think Him as well as Christians insane.

Therefore, in my opinion, insanity, within reason, is an attribute, not a fault. Though others may disagree, I believe that it takes immense courage to be insane or even just to take a stand on what you believe in resulting in being though insane by some.

Friday, April 2, 2010

A Break of Spring

Spring Break is upon us once more, though technically mine doesn't begin until tomorrow, due to the fact that I still have school to do today. But instead of writing today, I'm going to make a list of sorts of things that I want to do and become this summer, and I plan to start a few of these with this break I have this upcoming week. It's not that I don't like who I am, (though sometimes that is the case) I just want to become a better person; a better Christian.
-taye

Life to-do's:

1. Become a reader. I love reading, it is like a movie. For a while, you can just get whisked off into another world, another life, another person. My problem: procrastination, and the fact that I have so many books I want to read that I start reading about four at a time and then end up not finishing any of them. But I want to become one of those people who nose is always in a book, I do not really know why, but people like that always seem so peaceful; so content, and not bothered by the world around them.

2. STOP procrastinating. I think this one is going to be the most difficult because I have the feeling that I will want to procrastinate starting it. My procrastination has gotten so bad lately though, that I even want to procrastinate procrastination! It sounds ridiculous, I know. So I am going to stop, and I have the feeling that by stopping, I will get a lot more done with my life.

3. Study the Word. A girl at church talked about this two weeks ago. The Bible is literally the Word of God, He breathed it (2 Timothy 3:16) and it is here to teach us. Over the past, I have been a "skimmer", someone who skims, so to speak, while they read the Bible. But, the Bible is not here for us to simply skim, we should be in it daily, studying it. There is so much about God's Word that I don't know, so much that I have not yet read. I want to dive into it and absorb it like a sponge.

4. Live. At first glance, living sounds easy...oh no, it is not, not for me at least, in fact, lately it has been kind of a struggle. It is not like I am depressed or anything, I am content, but I want to be more than just content, I want to be happy. Joy is something I have a hard time with sometimes, but when I think about all that Christ has done for me, the idea of NOT being joyful seems absurd, though I still continue to struggle with it. I was watching a Hallmark movie the other night (I love those, by the way) and this guy said "I'm excited about waking up every morning now..." and that sort of hit me. I do not get excited about waking up every morning, most mornings I hit the snooze button about three or four times. I want to be excited about living everyday.

5. Lighten up on Facebook. Oh facebook, how you encourage my procrastination! Facebook has been a real contributor to my procrastination, it just seems to call my name every time I get on the computer to write a paper or study for the ACT/SAT. But it has got to stop. I am not going to quit it completely, but I am going to have to seriously lighten up on how much I get on.

So there we are...a short list of to do's that I want to accomplish from now (SPRING BREAK!) through the end of the summer.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

April Fools!

April 1st has come around once again, and as usual, I can think of nothing to prank my family or friends. Oh well. I haven't written in a while so while I should be studying for my history test, I'll write instead. haha.
-taye


April Fools

Year after year on the date of the first of April, we are fooled by our friends--after all it is called April Fools Day for a reason, however, we are not just fools on this one day out of the year, we are fools everyday. Before I continue, let me inform you that there are two types of fools: Fools for the world and fools for Christ.

To be a fool for the world means to fall into its deceptive traps and lies. Recently, I have been there myself. You get caught up in something that the world is telling you and you forget to listen for what God is trying to say. But our purpose on the earth needs to be consistently remembered, because we were not created to live as fools of the world!

"Is this the way you repay the Lord, O foolish and unwise people? Is He not your Father, your Creator, who made you and formed you?" -Deuteronomy 32:6

"Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind..." -Romans 12:2


The type of fool we should always be striving to become is a fool for Christ. This may sound odd to you, but it is one of the best compliments you can receive. When I say this, I am not meaning that we are fools for following Christ, but in fact the world views us as fools, because they do not understand. Therefore, it is better to be viewed as a fool for following after Christ than become a true fool by following the world.

"Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For everything in the world—the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does—comes not from the Father but from the world. The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever." -1 John 2:15-17

"Do not be surprised, my brothers, if the world hates you." -1 John 3:13

"The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know Him." -1 John 3:1

So today, I urge you to be a fool for Christ!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

I'll let you go, I'll set you free

So this is hard to write but I've got to release some stuff from my head.
-taye


Letting Go

As a human, as a female, as a teenage girl, the act of letting go is extremely difficult. I am approaching my senior year in high school and this upcoming year is going to be one of letting go, I do not know how I am going to do it.

I will have to let go of home. Though I live in this tiny little town, I adore it; it is so cute and small-town but I like that about it, I am going to miss it. Along with the town I will have to let go of some people. A few of these people I will absolutely not mind letting go of, in fact, I have been trying to let go of them for years, others, however the process of letting go will be a hard one. Even so, there are some that I will not be able to let go of and these are the ones who will remain in my life forever.

There are some people that I have yet been able to release from my life, some of which I need to desperately, but cannot. I cannot find it in me to let go of them and it hurts. But I will leave with this prayer:

"God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next."
-Reinhold Niebuhr

Friday, March 12, 2010

A friend is...

It's currently pouring down rain outside (my favorite weather) and I have a lot to do, which, of course, is the reason I'm writing, it's always a good way to procrastinate, and lately I seem to be all about procrastinating. Recently, I've been tossing some ideas around in this completely disorganized brain of mine about friendship. Unfortunately I have a speech to write, so we'll see how long/short this becomes.
-taye



What is a friend?

Looking at quotes about friendship, one word in particular seems to continue to pop up: understand. To a certain degree I side with that opinion, but a friend is so much more than someone who simply understands you. A friend, I believe, should be someone who remains by your side even when they do not understand. This is something I have had to learn recently, and trust me, it is not by any means an easy task.

Friends are human, they will make plenty of mistakes, and they will hurt you...even the ones that you have known since you were in diapers. But something we must realize is that we are human too, and we are going to make the same number, if not more mistakes and hurt our friends as well. One key to a lasting friendship is this: forgiveness. We must forgive our friends for the times that they hurt us as well as the mistakes that they make.

A fault of mine is that I am very judgemental. I like to critique the lives of those around me without looking at my own (see Matthew 7:1-5 by the way), and I tend to do this with my friends as well. A friend is someone who will look out for you; someone who will let you know when you are doing wrong, however after you have let them know about their wrongdoings, there is a point where you have got to step back and let them make their own mistakes. This is where being supportive comes in to play. After the stepping back, you have to be supportive. You must give support, encouragment, and love even when you do not understand. I believe this is what makes a good friend.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

I will praise You in this storm

So, reading over the post from the other day, I realize that I need to proof before posting, there were a ton of grammatical errors. Sorry for that. Anyway, last night for my quiet time I read a story very familiar to most Christians: Jesus calming the storm. However, as I read it brought comfort to me, I really needed that last night. God has a way of bringing encouragement at just the right time. Have a happy Tuesday!
-taye


I will praise You in this storm

"One day Jesus said to His disciples, 'Let's go over to the other side of the lake.' So they got into a boat and set out. As they sailed, He fell asleep. A squall came down on the lake, so that the boat was being swamped, and they were in great danger.
The disciples went and woke Him, saying, 'Master, Master, we're going to drown!'
He got up and rebuked the wind and the raging waters; the storm subsided, and all was calm. 'Where is your faith?' He asked His disciples.
In fear and amazement they asked one another, 'Who is this? He commands even the winds and the water, and they obey him.'
"
{Luke 8:22-25 NIV}


Though this was the telling of a true story, I believe that it also is in the Bible to serve as a parable just as so many other biblical stories are. At some point in life, every single person goes through a "storm" of some kind; in fact, there will be many of life's storms along the journey. We may question why we, as God's children must endure these storms; we may grumble, panic, or fear just as the disciples did, or we can choose to have faith...there is not room enough for both fear and faith, we must choose one.

If we choose fear, how much more difficult the storm will become! It will go from a summer thunderstorm to a horrible hurricane, and chances are that we will not stand firm when it is over. On the contrary, if we choose faith, along with it will come hope, and eventually joy. Where there is faith, there is no need for fear.

If faith is the road we take, there is one more umbrella we need to hold: praise. We must learn to not only endure the storm, but praise the One who will rescue us from it; the only One who is able to calm it.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Happily Ever After...

One item on my bucket list is to write a book...preferably fiction, perhaps a good love story (after all I do love Jane Austen and Nicholas Sparks). On the drive home from my Grandparents' house tonight I though of some good stuff for it and was going to make yet another attmept to write it, however, now that I sit down to actually begin, my mind goes blank...of course that's how it works! So instead, I'll write on here...get a little bit off my mind.
-taye


Happily Ever After?

Prince charmings, knights in shining armor, or not-so-shining armor, happily ever afters...these are the things that have constantly been on my mind lately. Like most girls, I love a good love story. I've seen Dear John in theaters twice now, lost count of how many times I've read all the Twilight books, and fall in love everytime I watch a Disney Princess movie (Beauty & the Beast is my favorite, by the way). But sometimes, especially lately, I have been wondering whether or not we'll all have our own happily ever after. Though tragic tales of unending love capture our hearts- after all could hate Romeo & Juliet?- who truly wants a love story that ends? If we are all honest with ourselves, however, we all know that we have had doubts at some point in life whether or not Prince Charming even exists.

I imagine that if I were to ask Belle whether or not she thought she had a Prince Charming in the beginning, that her reply would be some grumbling about Gaston annoying persistance, and once she replaced her father captured position. Elizabeth Bennet must’ve had her fair share of doubts as well—after refusing Mr. Collins’ proposal and especially once the realization of her feelings toward Mr. Darcy came, after refusing his proposal as well! So, I believe it’s safe to say that, as girls, we have doubts about Prince Charming and simply about love in general. This is how I’ve felt lately.
However, the more doubts I continue to have, the more I realize that faith is the only thing possible to quench these doubts; to hide them and to override them. This faith is all that I can hold on to throughout my doubts, confusion, and life.

Friday, March 5, 2010

2010 so far

Hello again! So, at the start of this year, I was going to write everyday...haha. It appears that my giving up being a procrastinator for Lent hasn't really worked out as well as expected. But here we are, I cannot begin to believe that it's already March, but it appears that the third month has crept upon me once again. There is so much going on in my head right now that it would take hours to begin sorting through it all to find a topic to write on today, so I thought I'd just give a quick update on my life in 2010 so far.
-taye


Two.Thousand.Ten

My New Year's Resolutions: I made a pretty hefty list of things I wanted to accomplish this year, but it's safe to say that they're all still merely works in progress. One resolution was to love others. I have my days on this one; some days it goes great and I can be positive about everyone (or nearly everyone) I seem to encounter, on the other hand, some days I probably resemble Godzilla, which I'm not extremely proud of. This just goes to show that I am nowhere near perfection and that I must rely upon the Lord for my joy and strength...every single day.

The future: I have recently begun the stressful process of looking at colleges and taking those terrible tests known as the SAT and ACT. I've taken each test once so far, and though my scores are good, I still need to bring them each up a bit so I've got to take each at least one more time. I'm looking seriously at two colleges, and have already scheduled a visit to the University of South Carolina in a few weeks. I plan on majoring in dance, wherever I go, and perhaps a minor in either journalism or business. I have my entire life planned out, which is probably a bad thing, and have found that no matter what I have planned, chances are the God will overrule those plans so that His will may be done.

So much more is going on in my life, but as of right now it's 2:30pm and I have to finish school and get ready for the rest of the day. Hopefully, I stop procrastinating and start writing a little more...soon perhaps.

Friday, February 19, 2010

Passion & Purity

So I after many weeks of procrastination, I finally finished reading Passion and Purity by Elisabeth Elliot...wow, it made me think about my views and standards on so many issues. I think that any Christian girl (or guy, but especially girls) should absolutely read this book. It will make you think about where you stand, and what God has planned for things concerning dating, relationships, and marriage. But anyway, I just wanted to share some of my favorite sentences, sections, verses, quotes, etc... I practically have half the book underlined!
-taye




Passion & Purity

"By trying to grab fulfillment everywhere, we find it nowhere."

"No one, man or woman should be agitated about the choice of a mate, but should be 'asleep' as it were, in the will of God, until it should please Him to 'awake' him." ~Song of Solomon

"Have no fear: for I have paid your ransom; I have called you by name and you are My own." ~Isaiah 43

"I ask no other sunshine than the sunshine of His face"

"Be it by water or fire, O make me clean"

"Take my love--my God, I pour at Thy feet its treasures store." ~Francis Ridley Havergal

"Oh Christ, He is the foundation, the deep, sweet well of love..."

"All is far outweighed by the gain of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord." ~Apostle Paul

"Do I want what I want, or what He wants, no matter what it might cost?"

"A road may seem straightforward to a man, yet may end as the way to death. Even in laughter the heart may grieve, and mirth may end in sorrow"

"The heart set to do the Father's will need never fear defeat."

"When our hearts are set on obedience, we can be sure of the needed wisdom to tell the difference between a conflict and a harmony."

"Whom have I in heaven but Thee? And there is none upon the earth that I desire besides Thee." ~Psalm 73:25

"The Holy Spirit was given to guide us into all truth, but He doesn't do it all at once."

"Waiting on God requires the willingness to bear uncertainty, to carry within oneself the unanswered question, lifting the heart to God about it whenever it intrudes upon one's thoughts."

"The things we feel most deeply we must learn to keep quiet about , at least until we have talked them over thoroughly with God."

"Waiting is steadfastness, that is holding on; patience, that is holding back; expectancy, that is holding the face up; obedience that is holding oneself in readiness to go or do; listening, that holding quiet and still so as to hear."

“God gives us material for sacrifice. Sometimes the sacrifice makes little sense to others, but when offered to Him is always accepted.”

“I cannot love you if I love not Him.”

“When the will of God crosses the will of man, someone has to die.” ~Addison Leitch

“We have to learn to trust in little things, even what may seem like silly things.”

“I know no other prayer than Thy will be done.”

“Say yes to God, He will bring the very best to pass.”

“When obedience to God contradicts what I think will give me pleasure, let me ask myself if I love Him…yes to God always leads in the end to joy.”

“The Christian mortifies the flesh by submitting to the authority of Christ.”

“Christ woos us, calls us, wins us, gives us His name, shares with us His destiny, takes responsibility for us, and loves us with a love stronger than death.”

“For God called us to holiness, not to impurity.”

“The concept of purity does not deny life, it refers back to the giver of life Himself. Purity means freedom from contamination, from anything that would spoil the taste or the pleasure, reduce the power…it means cleanness.”

“A man’s love for a woman ought to hold her to the highest. Her love for him ought to do the same.”

“Love means following the commands of God.”

“It is the yielding, not the temptation itself that is sin.”

“Why put yourself in any situation where the lines become smudged and obscure? Why take the risks? Why accept the pressure of tremendous temptation when you can easily avoid it by refusing to be anywhere where compromise is possible?”

“There is no ongoing spiritual life without the process of letting go.”

“The kind of love that sustains a marriage is God given, but it is also a daily choice for the rest of your life.”

“Christ is the head of the church. He loves, woos, calls, sacrifices Himself. He does not impose His will.”

“Jesus came into the world specifically for us who blew it, not for those who ‘need no repentance’.”

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

On Christ our foundation lies

So, at the beginning of the year, I was going to write everyday. Apparently that didn't happen, but I'm still going to write when I can. Today's writing is going to be rare. Random fact about me: I hate history. I find it extremely boring and repetitive, but since I'm supposed to be studying my history chapter this very minute, I might as well write about it to encourage and end to my procrastination.
-taye



On Christ our foundation lies

George Washington once said, "It is impossible to rightly govern the world without God and the Bible" and that is how this country started--with strong emphasis on God and the Bible. So why have today's politicians strayed so far away from our original foundation? The answer is unknown.

There are so many controversial issues in politics today. Abortion, gay marriage, etc... A large number of people seem to be confused on these issues when the answers are clear and black and white in the Word of God.

Abortion:
"For You created my inmost being; You knit me together in my mother's womb...I am fearfully and wonderfully made." -Psalm 139:13-14

"Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, who you have received from God? You are not your own." -1 Corinthians 6:19

Gay Marriage:
"The Lord God said, 'It is not good for man to be alone, I will make a suitable helper for him.'...Then the Lord God made a woman from the rib He had taken out of the man and He brought her to the man...a man will his father and mother and and be united to his wife and they will become one flesh." -Genesis 2:18,22,24

"Do not lie with a man as one lies with a woman. That is detestable." -Leviticus 18:22


On almost all of the situations that political figures are confused about today, the answers can be found where God and the Bible are found. God is absolute truth as well a His Word, and our country would be somewhere completely different today if we hadn't lost where our foundations began: in Christ.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Up, up and away!!!

So I literally just finished watching Disney's UP for the first time...amazing. I thought it was going to be a little kiddy movie but it was incredible. Not saying little kiddy movies can't be incredible. But anyway, I then realized I hadn't written anything today so that sort of inspired me. Here we go!
Up, up and away!!!
-taye



I've always heard that it's the little things in life that matter most and after a little bit of pondering, I must agree. Though while we are going through the process, we tend to look forward more to the big events: birthdays, weddings, graduations, etc...in the end, once you are looking back on it all, the events that appear the clearest actually are not events at all, they are the little, boring (at the time) simple things that made a difference.

This seems to prove truest with falling in love. When you are in love with someone and you spend time together, it is all the small things that the other person does for you that makes you love them more, not the huge things. Consider it for a moment. When they first ask you on a date what do you remember most? How they asked you. When they propose what do you remember and tell everyone when they ask? How they proposed. Where you were, what the both of you were wearing, what your reaction was, etc... It's the little things that mean the most

Other situations in life, you remember the situation, of course, but mostly you remember how it made you feel, what you were thinking, what else was going on. Therefore, it is indeed the little things, not the big that matter most.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

A Little Less Conversation

I had a very...er...interesting day yesterday to say the least. But rather than get angry about that, I'm going to write a little bit about my personality in a way...so here we go. And yes, the title comes from an Elvis song.
-taye



A Little Less Conversation

To most people, aside from my closest friends, I appear to be a quiet person. Though my closest friends may strongly disagree, if someone were to ask me, I believe that I would have to agree with the majority. Though I may not always appreciate the fact that I'm quiet, I've recently learned to be thankful for this character trait in myself. If I don't always like it, how can I be thankful for it? Because of lessons learned and experiences I have been through.

In an argument, for example, most people might think being soft-spoken would be rather fruitless, however, I disagree. In the case of two people arguing, how much worse would that argument become is both parties are yelling? Quite a bit worse, indeed! Therefore, If one party is yelling and the other is simply listening; trying to hear the other person out; trying to think of some sort of response; trying desperately to think of a way to end the entire disagreement; then the argument is more likely to simmer more quickly (due to the fact the argument is becoming one-sided) and the quiet one will more than likely walk away with a bit less regret than the yelling one probably will. In cases like this, I'm thankful to be in the quiet position.

Another example is a serious conversation with a close friend. Say something upsetting has just occurred that has upset your friend, and they come to you to talk about it. A quiet friend makes a good listener. If one is quiet, they can absorb the entire story--without interruption--resulting in a much more helpful and encouraging friend and problem-solver, if needed.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Forsaken Love

At first, I was having a little bit of trouble deciding what to write about today, but then it came to me. A couple of days ago, I began reading "Passion and Purity" by Elisabeth Elliot. I have had many of my close friends recommend this book saying it will change my life. Seven chapters into it, my life has already been changed. So here are a few things I've gotten from this book so far and some other things that God has been doing lately.
-taye


Forsaken Love

"I know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance. I know that you cannot tolerate wicked men, that you have tested those who claim to be apostles but are not, and have found them false. You have persevered and have endured hardships for My name, and have not grown weary. Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love."
-Revelation 2:2-4 (NIV)

The latter sentence of this passage in the book of Revelation struck me. Upon first reading it nearly a week ago, I literally sat with the breath knocked out of me upon reading the last words. Why? Because God was speaking to me. It was not any other human being whom He was speaking of, it was I. I was the one who had been so selfish and callous as to have forsaken my first love, Jesus Christ.

The past few nights, as I have delved into the heart and mind of Elisabeth Elliot through her book "Passion and Purity" I have been coming to the sad realization of what the world views as true love. I have friends who have lost count of the number of boyfriends they have obtained in their lifetime so far, some of those friends being younger than I am. In the section when Elisabeth Elliot describes her first date and the days that followed wit the man that would eventually become her husband, I could see where I and the world fall short of what God has planned for true love. True love is completely impossible without knowledge and understanding of the indescribable love that Christ has for us, His children. He created love, so wouldn't one think that He has it figured out how one can truly love another? One would think so, but the world does not agree.

I was pondering this morning how people could believe in evolution and ended up with a pretty good analogy that made me chuckle. Say you went to your biological parents one day and told them: "Mom, Dad, I don't believe that I was born through you, I believe that my fish Nemo conceived and birthed me." Would your parents not nearly die from laughter? The theory of evolution, in a way, can be related. It's like looking at God and telling Him, "I don't believe you created me or anything else in the earth." God loves us abundantly, let us not continue to forsake our first love, especially when He is willing to give us a second chance at loving Him.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Little Ballerinas

So, the other day, I was watching my best friend teach her dance classes for homeschoolers at our church...the program is called Steps of Faith. I was technically supposed to be writing a speech for my class, but instead I wound up writing this...it's titled "Little Ballerinas."


Little Ballerinas

As I sit here and observe a ballet class full of little girls, I can see the joy of the Lord. Though some of the girls lack passion, I see some that are as passionate about dancing as I am, though obviously in a different way. Even the disobedient ones, once they begin skipping I start to see glimpses of joy in their laughter and the giant smiles on their faces.

Alongside the joy, I see Christ’s love—the love that He has for His children. I see it from the way the young teacher praises each little girl as she finishes a step, regardless of whether it was executed correctly or not. I also see His love in the way one little girl hugs another when she came into class upset. Also accompanying the joy and love, I see patience. I see patience as the teacher waits calmly with a fake smile on her lips for each girl to join her in a straight line to do chassés.

Aside from the joy, love and patience, I see so much more. In the eyes of each little girl I see something different. In the eyes of the newest student, I see eagerness to learn and drink everything in. In the eyes of the angelic looking little girl with the blonde curls, I see pure happiness. The eyes of the perfectionist: determination, the eyes of the youngest: freedom. And in the puffy eyes of the little one who began class with tears and sniffles, I now see the epitome of a little girl having the time of her life.