So, it's been a while since I've written. I have been so ridiculously busy it's insane. But I really am enjoying senior year so far. Of course changing my mind a lot. So far, I've applied to Belhaven, Auburn, and South Carolina. I'm trying to decide on at least one or two other places to apply and right now I'm considering TCU, UNCSA, and maybe possibly even Julliard, though it's all up in the air at this point. Anyway, Right now I'm trying to focus on falling in love with God, which is harder than it appears, but here's just some stuff I've been thinking about lately.
-taye
How do you fall in love?
Beginning this summer, during my time at Camp Marannook, I decided that I wanted to fall in love with God, and that I wanted to work on that over my senior year of high school. However, it has been a significant struggle for me. When I think about everything that Christ has done for me and how deep His love is for me, it seems foolish that I cannot find it in myself to fall madly in love with Him.
A couple of nights ago, I was lying in bed attempting to pray and as my mind wandered off somewhere I found myself thinking of love. These thoughts reminded me of my "goal" of falling in love with God. I got to wondering why I struggling so much with it, when I began to think: "How do you fall in love?" I realized that I was trying to force myself into falling in love with God without spending a lot of time talking to Him or in His Word. No wonder it was not working!
When two people fall in love, they do so while spending a lot of time together. They talk, they write each other notes, they dive in and dig in to figure out everything there is to know about the other person. I was not doing any of these things with God. I realized that relationships on earth are used to help us understand how to have a relationship with God. It is kind of like babysitting provides you with examples and experience on how to take care of your own child. You learn. Relationships on earth show us how to have a relationship with God and vice versa.
